Wow did today suck. I guess it was about time the honeymoon with my job came to an abrupt end. I'm one week shy of my 3 month anniversary. I signed a document when I was hired that stated I had to return my hire-on bonus if I quit before a year. During today's meeting, I was wondering if they meant before or after taxes, because suddenly quitting seemed like a good idea. My position is a politically charged one. Everyone thinks they can do my job, and for years, these people did. But, they didn't do a very good one, which is why they hired experts like me. So long story short, I had to stop off at Trader Joe's and grab a bottle of red wine--Sebastiani's Cabernet. To top it off, I'm pretty sure I have a sleeping disorder because last night I barely slept at all and no matter how much or how little sleep I get, its never enough. No more work talk--its ruining my red wine buzz.
So, I briefly mentioned a few posts back that I'm "talks" with a 40 year old. Well, we've been emailing each other for what seems like weeks now. We exchanged phone numbers during these exchanges, and yet no phone calls. I have a rule--never call a man. But his excuse for not calling me is "writing allows for a deeper communication". Is it just me or is that the lamest fucking thing ever. The truth is I can careless if this guys calls me or not, and I told him that via email, of course. But don't give me some lame excuse about why not. And don't tell me emails are expressive, because phone convos are just as expressive, especially since you can literally hear expressions in people's tone. It takes me like 15 minutes to respond to his emails because they are extra long. I haven't necessarily lost interest yet, but I'm about 1 email away from just dismissing this guy altogether. Am I overreacting? Maybe I'm just super impatient, but lets get to the point already. Everyone has their weird quirks and I don't know, I just don't feel with dealing it with it. Maybe I'm just getting old.